Rainbow child

I’m sick and tired of the crappy service offered by blog.com, so I’m moving to another domain. Jen was so sweet and offered to host me at .mostly-harmless.ro, this means my new blogs will be:

• the personal blog: http://rainbowchild.mostly-harmless.ro/
• and my book blog [RO]: http://rainbowbooks.mostly-harmless.ro/

I will have more facilities and hopefully I won’t encounter as many errors as on this domain. It’s hard to leave my ionuca.blog.com because I’ve been here almost a year and a half now and here are sooo many memories and feelings. On the other hand, I want better services and blog.com wants to be paid for them and I’m not paying!

Btw, this server is going through an existential problem period and the blog will be on and off the following days. But it will be back on track in no time

Bye-bye, blog.com!

*Byron - The essential piece [yup, another obsession ]

I know, I can be soooo damn annoying with my happiness! The day stared a-ok with an exam at German Phonology. Got an 8 and I hadn’t even went to a single course! I know, it’s crazy! And I hate German! It was funny that as I was waiting to enter the class, I took Centrifuga by T.O.Bobe, laid down on the floor and started reading. All my colleagues were agitated and nervous, but not me! Heck no! I always enter into a whole new dimension when I read and it’s good to be able to detach myself from reality from time to time. I can hardly wait to start Cum mi-am petrecut vacanta de vara by the same author, cause he sure has got potential!

4 more exams and then work! I can hardly wait to start work. I only hope that I’m going to be good at it! But I’ve promised myself that is working with books will somehow affect my appetite for reading and buying books, I’m going to quit. Nope, the pure pleasure of reading will never be taken away from me, do you hear me???? And I have found out my mark at the English Morphology exam: I got a 9!!!!! I was soooo happy! Of course I didn’t have to guts to look at the mark myself so Maria had to do that for me I know, I have a problem with seeing my marks for the first time, don’t know why, though.

I’m kind of hungry right now, but it’s almost 4 in the morning and I really don’t want to cook at this hour. I’ll just have to do with a Milka Mike is coming over tomorrow [I mean today!]!!! I can hardly wait! It’s great that we can see each other, because I can feel he’s going to be accepted at some fancy university in America and God know when I’m going to see him again. Yeah, he’s always been like a brother to me and I love him so dearly! I’m pretty excited about seeing him! My Mike :X

I’m going to Cluj before heading home for the holiday. I’m going to spend some quality time with My Maria there ;)) I can hardly wait! I think she’d kill me if I postponed this little detour I looks like it’s going to be a very nice holiday after all I just hope Cata will be able to come home so as to spend the holiday together. I don’t know how it’s going to be with this bloody distance: he can’t neglect his school, I can’t neglect my work. I guess we won’t see each other as often as we had thought, but at least we’ll be in the same country!!!! [I think I'm starting to hate Italy for taking him away from me! :D] In love? Yes, I am. He is awesome I know, I know, we had lots of problems in the first year [can you believe this??? We've been together for more than a year!], but we solved them. Now I am again so very fascinated by him and I daydream all day long how pink and happy our lives will be after he will have moved to Bucharest.

The only disturbing thing that happened today is related to an e-mail Mum sent me. It was for the first time in 6 years’ time, that I felt that writing/talking to someone on the Internet is a cold, neutral activity. I read and read her e-mail and I couldn’t picture her saying those words, I couldn’t imagine her face while she was “telling” them to me. And them I thought about the e-mails I receive from dear friends, how vivid, full of live and love they feel; and how I always try to put a bit of “me” in every e-mail I send. It really was strange!

Guess I’ll call it a night. Well, not quite, because Brave New World is waiting by the bedside for me, but you get the picture Good night, dudes!

I kind of overreacted with Set the fire to the third bar… I listened to it for 275 times in 2 days! Damn!

It’s funny how certain songs can trigger certain moods. I’ve been listening to *Set the fire to the third bar for hours and hours and I can’t get enough of it! [thank you, Ramona, for this new obsession]. Although I’m very melancholic at the moment, I don’t want to change this state of mind. I’m almost enjoying it…

Of course I thought about the people I’d loved and the ones I’d cared so much for. Strangely, I couldn’t stop smiling. I remembered only the good times we had together. I remembered their laugh, their kisses, their hugs. And I felt strange. I was so full of love for those dear memories and I was in such a bitter-sweet state of mind, that I couldn’t help myself and wrote an e-mail to Alex - nothing much, but I told him that every time I think about him, I instantly smile. As I had expected, he hasn’t replied and he never will. This is not good, because it means that the answer to the question “Do They ever think of me?” must be “No” and that would make me feel awfully sad. [later edit: he did write!!! and he too smiles when he thinks of me!!!]

Another thing is that only now I have realised that I never actually loved Radu. It was only a very strong feel of friendship that I felt for him. We had so much fun together, I could be myself around him, but I never really loved him. Sad? Don’t really know. But what I know is that, whenever I think of the people who marked my existence, he’s not among them. We were good buddies and we should have stayed that way.

I can’t believe that in less than a month’s time Cata will be back home. It was horrible with him there, in Italy. We still won’t be living in the same city, but at least I’d be able to just take the train to Cluj whenever I feel I’m going nuts without him. Uh, I’ve been bitching about him for more than a year now, but I’m pretty sure it’s going to be more than ok. Yeah, it’s going to be more than ok…

And apart from these existential problems, there are moments when I feel I have so many things to give thanks for. I have great, great friends; I’ve met new and incredible people in the last year. There are certain people which fill my heart with love and a simple YM conversation with them makes me cry of happiness. And there are people I haven’t yet met in real live, but who are so special and dear to me; people who always make me smile.

This is my current mood: melancholic, but happy. Not thinking about what could have been, but smiling that it happened. No regrets, no remorse, no tears… just a big smile.

I’m miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold gound
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

Snow Patrol feat Marta Wainwright - Set the fire to the third bar

I don’t feel older, nor special. I didn’t want to do anything yesterday, but I bought some KFC food and went to my aunt “to celebrate”. My aunt surprised me and bought me a cake and then she and Mihnea sang “Happy birthday” and it was kind of touching. It feels good to have such great people around you!

And today I went to spend the money I had received from my parents. I had in mind buying a new pair of Converse shoes and a bag for my laptop, but my plans suddenly changed. I still bought the bag, tough. Well… Jen’s eBook reader kind of changed my mind, to be honest. I met Jen and went to her place. We ate, drank a cup o tea [delicious!], ate cake and chocolate, talked about books and then it happened: she showed me her eBook reader. It was love at first… reading! I had seen it with other occasions as well, but only today I actually took a good look at it. Yeap, I definitely want one. I even talked to mum and she said “ok”. And I have the money… so, it’s settled. Well, it’s not actually… Cata said I’d better buy a PDA. What should I do??? And here comes the really dilemma: a classic eBook reader or a PDA? Help? :-S

Later edit [25.01.2006]: I thank all of you for your kind suggestions. After much tough and consideration [not!] I’ve decided that an eBook reader would be the best choice for now. Though I dream of a Sony reader  I’ll just have to settle for this one instead. And I can hardly wait to have it!!!! MINEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, I totally like Jen

 Me!

 Awwwww

 :D

I hope tonight
You will touch my hair
And draw ghosts on my back

múm - The ghosts you draw on my back

Know what? I’m pissed off. Really pissed off. Today I found out that I cannot live with another person, to whom I’m not related in a way, in the same apartment. I simply can’t. Yes, I’m aware that everyone has problems with room/flat mates, but I can’t stand it anymore!!!

I’m a difficult person. I like to put things in a place and I expect them to be there when I need them. I have MY things. I have MY way of arranging them. I have MY ideas of how 2 people living in the same apartment should behave. And what’s more, MY things are only MY THINGS!

Some of my flat mate’s friends from Baia Mare are visiting her. They are 3 people, in a room smaller than mine. Oh, excuse me: they are 5 people, if we count her and her university colleague, which I don’t know why is staying here. Thus, 2 of them have to sleep in my room. Thus, I don’t have any privacy. I mean, her friends from BM are ok and all, but wtf did she invite so many if she knew she hadn’t so much space in her room?

Of course they made something to eat: French fries with fried meat. And they used MY oil without asking me [yeah, I want back that 1/2L of oil you used] and they fried the meat in MY frying pan for frying only potatoes!!!!!!!! Yeah, at least they washed the dishes. But when I wanted to make myself some spaghetti and entered the kitchen and saw all those pots and frying pans and stuff all over the place, I was on the point of strangulating someone!!! MY KITCHEN!!!! Did you use it? Fine! But don’t leave it that way!!! Clean it and leave it as you had initially found it!!! I feel like MY kitchen has been violated! MY KITCHEN!!!

Ok… I’ve got to keep calm… I’ve got to take a deep breath… moving on. When I entered the bathroom the small carpet we have on the floor was rolled up [why?!]. There was water in the bathtub and the toilet wasn’t sufficiently flushed. Come on!!!!! At least have a little decency!

I really think I’m paranoid and complicated. I can’t stand people messing around with MY things, touching them, using them. I love my apartment and I try to take care of it as best as I know and when things like this happen, I feel like killing someone! It’s MY house, do you understand???? MY HOUSE! I feel I’m acting like a total bitch right now, but I can’t help it. I want my place to be as it was. I don’t mind people coming to visit her, but stay the fuck away from my things and if you can’t help it, at least try and arrange them the way you had found them.

I’m so very curious to see if my flat mate will buy me oil, clean my frying pan, arrange the carpet in the bathroom and the things in the kitchen. Oh, I’m so very curious! Oh, and I don’t care if you told me to eat with you or if you told me to go out into town with you. I really, really don’t care!

Later edit: flush the bloody toilet!!!!!! And KNOCK before entering!!!!!!!!!!

Secrets, secrets, secrets… I’ve been tagged again, this time by Silvia. Let’s see what other 5 secret thingies about me I can share with you…

1. I twice ran away from home and each time my parents found me the second day and brought me back home. This happened in the 7 th and 8 th grade.
2. I had a brother who died when he was 2 and I was 7.
3. I once drank so much Coke that I puked [ really!!!!!!].
4. My father can’t hit me, because he knows I hit him back.
5. I can be a real hypocrite sometimes and I’m not proud of this

If Roxa and Green want to share some of their secrets with us, it would be awesome

A Friday song on a Friday afternoon of a person in such a Friday mood It’s Friday and I’m in love and I’m happy and I’m singing and I’m dancing!

It was such a stressful week, but thank God it’s Friday and it’s gooooone! I had 4 exams [2German, 1 Economy, 1 English morphology] and there’s one more for today at Law. I’m glad I took the English morphology exam and now I can relax a bit. I still have about 6 exams but they’re kind of ok, except one. So no more stress for me!

I’m so orange today: a t-shirt with orange and blue stripes, an orange belt, orange underwear and orange socks. I feel so happy wearing this colour! And by the way, I cut my hair!!!! I cut my hair!!!!!! I took the scissors, went into the bathroom and started cutting :)) Long hair is not for me. This means no more rows with mum about me not combing my hair, no more hair on my clothes [simply loath that!], no more hair on the back of my head [hate that feeling as well]. Yup, back to my old self! And I’m happy! And I’m full of energy! And I feel like dancing! And I have an exam in less than 2 hours time :))

But tonight I’m going to party!!! It’s Oni’s birthday and we’re going out. Yupi!!!! A girl’s night! Oh, yeah!!!! Beer, good music, DANCING and hanging out with the girls. It’s going to be a wild night!!!!

I’m so happy that I can’t write anymore :)) I love Fridays!!!!!!