Currently:
- Feeling: a bit tired and so very sad *he’s gone again :-<*
- Listening to: Tribalistas - Ja sei namorar
- Thinking about: him, obviously
- Reading: George Orwell - Animal Farm
Love makes the world go round. This is the conclusion I’ve reached after approximately 3 months of happiness.
I used to think that love was supposed to be like a powerful knock in the head, to make you blind and foolish, to make you do stupid things, to make you irresponsible. It took me 19 years, about 3 major crushes and other little ones to realise that love is not like that at all.
Love is made out of the purest of all feelings mixed with rationality. Love is not something that makes you go mad or do stupid things. On the contrary, love helps you evolve into a better self. It makes you become a more responsible person, a real mature you. In fact, you feel that you truly love only after you’ve realised you’ve grown, you’ve changed from an old self into a better an improved self. Love helps you metamorphose: you gain a certain confidence in yourself, you become a more happy person than before, you have a certain sparkle in your eyes and others look differently at you, as you were a much more beautiful person. But you are. Love has made you this way.
Love is rationality. You think before you act and therefore you take the best decisions for both of you. You understand that you can’t have all, that you can’t spend all of your time with the one you love, that you still have to study and take care of yourself. And you do all those daily chores consciously, knowing that at the end of the day you’ll meet him. You learn what patience means when he’s 15 minutes late and you add a new word to you dictionary: ‘forgiveness’. You simply can’t stay mad at him when he’s making that ‘forgive me’ face. Then you learn to share and you find out that you like it very much. A chocolate doesn’t give you the same satisfaction if you’re eating it alone. You wish you could share it with him.
But what do you do when he’s not around, when he’s gone? Do you cry your heart do? Do you feel you can’t do without him? Well, you shouldn’t. When you really love someone you realise that there are certain things that you cannot change. It’s not easy to let him leave and it’s not at all easy knowing you won’t see him for 2 or 3 weeks, but deep down inside you know that’s the way things are and no matter how many tears you’d shed you still won’t be able to change them. Of course you miss him when he’s gone, but you know he’s yours, all yours, and that he’ll come back and everything will be all right. And you know one more thing: that no matter how far he is, no matter how much time you’re apart, your love is going to remain as powerful and pure.
Love is all around you. You just have to open your heart and let it in. And trust me, after you have done that, you won’t ever want to let it fade away. Yeah, love really makes the world go round. It surely makes my world go round! ;))
