Friday, January 27, 2006

Glasses

I’ve always had this strange thing for glasses. Starting 3 years ago, I have been convinced I need glasses. Well, I went several times to see a doctor about my ‘problem’ and each and every time the result was: ‘Young lady, your eyes are perfect, you don’t need glasses’.
 
Well, I hadn’t needed glasses till today. I went again to see the optician and finally, she said: ‘If you’re that obsessed about wearing glasses, well, you have –0.5 and you can wear glasses now.’ So, I’m officially wearing glasses.
 
Due to my green obsession, I wanted to buy a pair of glasses with a green frame, but my mum saw this frame and she nagged me to buy it. Well, I did and now my glasses are brown with the lower part of the frames green. They’re ok. I still have to get used to them, though. It’s so strange a feeling.
 
Just wanted to update my blog and let you know I’ve changed my appearance. :D Have a nice weekend everyone! Lots of kisses!
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Monday, January 23, 2006

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to me! :) I’m 19 years old! Damn, how times flies when you’re having fun! :)) Yup, I have the most wonderful friends in the world, the most carring family ever and I also have Prince Charming ;))  What more could I possibly want?
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Friday, January 20, 2006

A big THANKS

I just want to thank all of you for your kind thoughts and for those great pieces of advice you always give me. THANKS for being there for me!
 
And we’ve solved that problem. I just told him what bothered me and he realised he was wrong and hopefully, everything’s going to be OK from now one. Yup, I surely ‘loke’ him! *that’s a great one, Holly!* For those of you who don’t know what ‘loke’ means, well, Holly, invented this word: it’s a kind of love/like but when you don’t know exactly if you only like the person or you love him. So, Mr, you’d better ‘loke’ me back! :)) Neah, don’t mind me, I’m simply happy. :)
 
I’m going to see him tomorrow!!!!!!! AAAAAAA!!! He’s coming home from Cluj and he’s going to stay 2 weeks home! That’s awesome! I still have some test papers till the end of this semester, but I’ll definitely make room for him in my busy schedule! :)) Oh yeah, we’re just so childish! I’m happy!
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Selfish and unkind :|

I don’t know what’s wrong, or who’s wrong, but I definitely don’t like the current situation between me and him. I’m constantly asking myself: ‘Does he really care about me?’ and ‘Am I important to him or I’m just another girlfriend on his list?’
 
To tell the truth, I know he cares about me, but, but, but… grrrrr… I want him to show that. We agreed to write each other e-mails, if not daily, then 2-3/week. Yeah, he wrote about 4 e-mails and the abandoned the thought. I feel like talking to him and telling him everything what’s happening in my life, so as not to feel a stranger when he comes home. I know he has exams and he’s stressed, but I truly doubt that he doesn’t have time to drop a few lines/day. I know I’m damn selfish and I want him only for me and I’d kidnap him and take him in a faraway country so the both of us could live happily ever after, but I feel like I’m wasting my love. :(
 
I guess he knows just how much I care about him and that makes him treat me with a bit of indifference. He let’s me starring at the screen while he’s doing I don’t know what Math problems and remembers there’s a certain stupid girl waiting for him to write a line or two and responds after 15-20 minutes. LAME! It’s not good… I’d do almost everything for him, I even neglect my studying to be able to talk more with him and still… he acts like I’m Whatever. That hurts. Maybe it’s just my imagination. Maybe I’m that selfish that I’m making all up… maybe he’s the one doing everything possible for this relationship to work, but I’m the one who likes to take all the credit for his work.
 
God, I’m so tired. I just came home from the funeral. Many people, many tears, another dear person gone. The interesting part is that at the table I was seated near some of my mum’s co-workers. Well, not actually, co-workers, cause my mum works at a bank, but she’s like they accountant or something. So, there are only men at that firm and they are all in their thirties, but I’ve known them for several years now and I sometimes pay them visits at the firm. So, like I was saying, I was seated near them and of course, started talking and talking and talking and they really made me forget about all my pain. And they were all very nice and we had a nice conversation. I know some of them were impressed about how talkative and nice I am. That makes me feel damn good. I like people to think I’m nice and open and talkative. Cause I want to work in the PR domain and I have to be like that. I like to hear myself talk, I like people to give me attention, I like to make people smile, I like to know that people like me. Yeah, it really was a nice experience.
 
I’m sleepy. All that crying and walking through cold weather and snow really got to me. I think I’ll read something. Have a nice day.
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Monday, January 16, 2006

My grandma died

When I heard the phone ringing at this hour in the night, I knew what had happened… my grandma died. We all have know that this moment was about to come, but the shock was still there. My mum picked up the phone and screamed. Yup…my grandma passed away.

I hope my mum won’t go crazy. I know how much she loved her, how she spoiled her, how she took care of her. My grandpa died 10 year ago and she was all she had. And now she’s gonne… my mum returned yesterday from Bucharest and didn’t have time to go and see her mum…. now, when she’ll see her, she’s no more…just a body…

It’s just so scary. Death…. we all have to die, but we never know when exactly. And we don’t know for certain what is THERE… we can only believe there’s God and Jesus, the angels and the prophets, heaven and hell. Once we’re dead will know that for sure.

Till then, please God take care of her soul. I’ll pray for your soul, grandma. You will not be forgotten.

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Friday, January 13, 2006

I’m the most obsessed person in the world :)

I’ve found out recently that I have many, many obsessions. I don’t know why, I don’t know for how long, but the fact is that I’m pretty obsessed and I’m proud of it! :D Here’s a list with my forever lasting obsessions. Of course, the list will remain open for future obsessions. Oh, cause they are all obsession, they aren’t written in any order.
 
Green. This is kind of a new obsession for me. I used to be blue-addict, but starting a few months ago I’ve realised that ‘hey, blue isn’t my colour! My true colour is green’. And since then I’ve been madly in love with all green things: notebooks, pens, clothes, everything. I’m very proud of my green Converse shoes and my green eyes. :)) Now that was so modest of me!
 
Fluffy boys. Uhh, this has got to be my favourite obsession (yeah, as if that exists!!). I really, really, got a thing for fluffy, plump boys. They’re sooooo cute! And the way the hug… oh, man, not even 1,000 thin boys can compete with 1 fluffy boy’s hug! I just love they way clothes look on them and I love their skin – it’s so soft. You may call me a freak, but this will remain an obsession forever and ever and ever…
 
Books. I’m a fervent reader *thanks mum for this one* and books have become over the years a must have, must read. I hate borrowing books from the library or buying second hand books. I usually borrow books from friends and family or I simply buy them. The problem is that in Romania books are freighting expensive and I can’t buy them as often as I wish. And they don’t use recycled paper!!!! The books are so heavy and I feel I’ve killed millions of trees for my pleasure. :| I wish they used recycled paper. And make the price of the books acceptable for everyone! ;)
 
uRMa. I’ve talked about it before. It was the musical revelation of 2005. I love their sound, their lyrics, I love that band! I really hope I’ll move to Bucharest this year *I have to study my butt off for that* and thus, be able to go to some of uRMa’s concerts. I can hardly wait!
 
Oranges. Well, not really oranges as in the fruit – can’t even eat oranges cause they’re too sour for me – but as in their smell. I simply love that smell!!! I use only a shower gel which smells like oranges and I have even a body cream with the same smell. Has anyone heard of a perfume with that smell cause I’m really interested in buying one. :D Uhh, to be completely sincere I have to admit that I also love chocolate with oranges and all kinds of sweets which contain oranges. That taste, that smell… it simply drives me crazy!
 
Rainbows, nature, hippies. I simply find myself in some of the hippies’ ideas. I think that the nature needs our protection and our love, I agree that it way better to make love than to kill *although I don’t agree with that ‘freelove’ concept* and I absolutely love they way they dressed.
 
Chocolate and sweets. I’ve found out that I can’t do without them. I’m a sugar-freak! I need sugar daily! Of course, chocolate is at the top of the list! My all time favourite is the one with oranges, though it used to be mint chocolate * after I’ve ate 4 boxes of mint chocolate in 2 weeks I can’t even stand to see it, not to mention to eat it!!! *
 
Coke. Miam-miam! Tasty obsession if I may say so. I’ve been a Coke addict since I can remeber, but I’ve made a bet with my boyfriend not to drink Coke anymore, cause it really isn’t good. I’ve tried this before *not to drink Coke * , but never really succeeded. I’m curious if I’ll make it this time. :D
 
Well, there I have many other obsessions, but it’s enough for one post. So, this is who I am: the most obsessed person in the world! :)
 
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Friday, January 6, 2006

School and him

Oh well, school’s about to start. This holiday was awesome! I got to spend a lot of time with him… well, not as much as I would have liked, but enough to help me get through the night :) And I learnt for my exams. At least at History and Philosophy.
 
Ok, I’m like nuts about my History exam and I have no idea why! I mean, I have 5 exams and I learn and learn only at History. I haven’t even started to learn at Romanian and I have tones of things to learn!!! Grrr… time isn’t really on my side. But I have this feeling that everything’s gonna be ok. Like I don’t have to worry about a thing… I don’t want to be that sure about going to university. I mean, the university exam is pretty hard and I really, really have to study for that, but…. (there’s always a ‘but’), I’m not worried at all. I wish I were. I think I will probably worry a lot before the exams… Now this is strange… I wanna go to university (it’s my dream since I can remember to move to Bucharest – and I can do that if I go to university), but I kind of take everything for granted… I really have to study harder!!! I MUST!
 
I wanna talk about him. I want everyone to know how special and great he is. I don’t even deserve him. But I’m grateful for him. I want him to think he has the most wonderful girlfriend in the world, I want him to feel so very special and loved. We didn’t go to the same New Year’s Party and, although I was a bit tipsy, I wrote something on my mobile phone about him and only today I’ve remembered about it: ‘Oh well, we’re all ready in the new year. I’m not thrilled. I wish I was with him, but apparently it’s not possible. I care so much about him. I like him very much cause he’s like a child: sweet and innocent. I don’t think I deserve him. He really is too good for me. I don’t know why, but when I’m around him I want to tell him I love him. I mean, I don’t know if I really love him, but I know it’s something more than ‘I like you’. It’s something more special, something that cannot be expressed into words. It’s more profound that I’ve thought… yeah, it’s more than words can say…’
 
As we’re still at the ‘love chapter’ of this post, I feel the need to write another message, this time one that I’ve sent. It dates back to 05.07.2005 and I sent it to Maria. Here it goes: ‘My Maria, my heart hurts. Something crushed deep down inside me. I can’t take it anymore! I wish I haven’t been in love before, I wish I haven’t loved before. The first love is the most beautiful one, the purest and the one which you never forget. It’s that first love which can become the eternal love. That’s the kind of love I wish for! A first and eternal love! Now is the time such a thing would be possible, but because I’ve loved before I cannot hope for that. I feel just like a kid, who has so many wonders to discover, who still knows how it feels to blush, who is naive, who still believes in dreams. I wish I could feel that first love… I feel so empty without the most wonderful feeling life could have given me. But I won’t go searching for the first love. I’ll let it find me. And when it will find me, I’ll never let it go! Never! I want to feel that first love!!!!!!’
 
I’m not sure if this is the first love I’ve wished for, but if it’s not, then it surely feels like it! I like you so much, dude!!! I… I think I love you.  
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Wednesday, January 4, 2006

Very happy

I can’t believe this. I’m soooooo happy!!! OMG! It’s something more than words can describe. I’m definitely in love again and it’s wonderful!!!
 
I’m simply amazed by him… he’s cute, fluffy, smart, kind… but it’s not those which count… it’s the fact that I’m with him and he’s great! We see each other every day and we talk about small things and we hold hands and blush… we’re like two kinds in love for the first time. THIS is the feeling I’ve been expecting! THIS – a pure and innocent love.
 
What more can I say? He’s always on my mind. I… damn, words cannot express my happiness! I’m happy! I’m happy! I’m happy!!!! Thank you. Lord! Thank you for filling my soul with this great happiness and giving me the opportunity to feel those extraordinary butterflies in my stomach again!
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Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Me and my best friend

I really love you, Maria! I’d do anything for you and please don’t ever let me down.

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